The shift
A little boy believed what he was told
That he came to this world to suffer.
This made him grow cold
And his heart become rougher.
Doomed to a life without joy,
he was an insecure ball of fears.
A distant and lonely boy,
Whose sole company were his tears.
Trained himself not to feel
There was way too much pain.
Lived in a world that was not real
Where he kept his emotions chained.
Little did he know,
This made everything worse.
Everything seemed to grow
into an endless and painful curse.
What his mind had created
was his own worst enemy.
He believed he was hated
Empty inside except for envy.
All that he’d lost
Traded truth for “fun”.
No one should bare the cost
Of feeling shunned.
He thought he was smart
Doing just what he wanted
What he’d give for another start
Or some loving guidance
Thought he could never go back
Or change what has happened
Whether he had or lacked
Whether sane or maddened
It seemed he’d lost it all
There was nothing left
He hit a wall
And welcomed death.
But it was far from the end
Rather just the beginning
Discovered true friends
And truly began living.
It’s been a gift
To recognize this lie
I’ve got so much to give
Feels good to thrive
He was stuck in the mud
And although painful
It was all that he’d known
Until I made the rainfall
Finally washed clean
And eyes wide open
Awoke to a dream
No more false hoping
In love with reality
And with my life
Totally in love me
While taking huge strides
I’ve changed the discourse
The boy used to put up a fight
I’ve become the loving voice
And his guiding light
Together we’re learning
And growing each day
Like gardeners pruning
Dead branches away
In awe and marvel
Of where I am today
Much to do still
But plucking away
Feels good to feel
It sits above all
Nothing’s better than real
Except maybe the feeling of love